Sobriety creeps in

Sobriety creeps in and disillusions my mind.  It makes me hurt it makes me anger the only thing that's real is the pain.  The boredom is unnerving it makes me anxious for anything but this.  Anything but me, I want to be anything but me, anywhere but here with anyone but you.  Knowing not what to do with me so I do nothing and it seems to be something I don't want to do. Yes nothing.  I don't want to do nothing I am Jack's sober being, I ache with numbness.  My thought are painful memories are dark take me away from this sober being.  Nothing I want to do is right.  My skin crawl and insides shake as the taste leaves my mouth and I wish for one more anything rather than nothing....I hurt from numbness.  My pain is real sobriety has given me pain as I am hurt.  Sober living is really void of life's little pleasures of the mind.  I ache of numbness I can't feel so I don't hurt my sobriety is gone i am numb to ache I feel no pain I'm happy inside me.  My memories void of dark as I know light I am no longer sober I am not hurt as I am me and I am HIGH!